Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Post #9 and my "final" post here!

UPDATE ( 07/21/19): This blog entry does not truly reflect who I am anymore.  The state of my well-being was not great in 2012, I had negative energy/low vibration and that has been cleared.  I live with high vibrational energy and that's final.  Physically, mentally/psychologically, emotionally and energetically I was not right in 2012.  I was careful, I redacted certain things.  I even redacted things that were written in 2012.  However, feel free to search for what was redacted using the Wayback Machine... if it's even there.  I haven't looked it up myself, so I have no idea.

I have decided to drop the Mick Bynes name as of 2019.  It started as a joke in 1998 when I combined the names Mick Foley and Amanda Bynes, similar to how Brian Warner chose his stage name Marilyn Manson.  I decided to use it as an internet handle starting around the mid-2000's.  I used Mick Bynes as an AIM screen name circa 2005.  I also used the name as a username/handle on other places as time went by.  Then I thought it'd be a cool stage name when Feefer was formed in 2008.  Now I find it to be out of date and I'm now comfortable using my real/birth name Devin Palladino instead..  Oh and feel free to still call me Mick or even Mick Bynes, that's fine by me! :)  As time went by, the Mick Bynes name was getting a bad rep.  I didn't care about that, I still used it.  Then I figured in 2019, it's time to move on from the name. Now I use my real name/birth name Devin Palladino when I record, write and perform music.

I use my real name when doing stand-up comedy (it's a hobby, I don't wanna get seriously into it).   I'm still known as Mick or Mick Bynes on some sites due to the fact people knowing me as that (some even only call me Mick) or I can't change a username that has MickBynes in it.  Nowadays I use ChaosDevin, KaosDevin and maybe even KhaosDevin as handles.

I keep the blog named as "mickbynes" as a reminder that I went by the name and most likely won't use the name again.  I don't want to go through the trouble to delete this blog, start a new one, copy and paste this entry as a new entry with the new blog.  For fun, I decided to comment on what I wrote here.  It seems like I'm dealing with another person and it's not even funny.  I'm so much better today!  08/06/2019 UPDATE: Nah, the URL is KaosDevin.  I remember reading signs with "fuck Mick Bynes" written.  I agree with those signs now LOL!


Hey... Look, I do not update this too much (whenever I do, it's stupid/silly bollocks you might not care about) and I have no time to maintain a blog (or anyone else's blog) at this time.  Where are entries #1-8 you might be asking yourself?  BALEETED!  WTF?  Why?!  Not so much into Homestar Runner nowadays... he's still cool to me, I have nothing against him.  Fuck it!  Meaningless to me and meaningless to most of you!  Uhhh... it has meaning, WTF was I going on about there?!  HAHA!  LOL! I am going to be extremely careful about what I write down as well.  Eh, not that carefully... I was not in a good frame of mind in 2012.  In fact, it was not a great year for me for the most part.  One day I might post about the positive things that happened to me in 2012 and there were plenty of those moments believe it or not.

Where should I begin?  Ever searched up Mick Bynes (umm don't, but search at your own risk lol.  Don't worry, it's fine) on Google and got my Last.fm music profile?  I don't check the shoutbox of it and I probably won't, because I know some people will say negative, hurtful and pessimistic things.  I've read it all and seen it all.  Haha, I don't care... it barely hurts while running with high vibe energy I experience today...  When I'm higher, it doesn't even matter and I'll laugh at you...  If you find  [REDACTED].  I am honored by it, because it reminds me of Anal Cunt's song against Chris Barnes. Yes I am a faggot.  I was being homophobic over myself?  Really?  LOL!   I'll even call myself faggot for you all... yeah and I'm 10000% comfortable saying that!  Seriously?  There I go again and so what I'll even say it now... I'm a faggot!  That's right!  What does it mean to you?  I'm simply a nice average person among the living (ooh good 'thrax album lol).  Nice?  Average?  I can be nice, but generally not a major part of my personality these days.  Oh please, if you know me I'm being fucking sarcastic!  There are people who have disgusting misconceptions and exaggerations about me.  Ya know, I don't even fucking care... it's whatever, however you feel and think about me is up to you, I'll tell you the truth about myself to your face if you have the gull to actually meet up with me face to face lol! Will I get into this?  No!  I do not want to bore you to tears.  Fuck, this blog is boring me to tears lol j/k!

As for the people who recorded that... They don't know me, they will never know me, I did nothing to them, I'll never do anything to them and I want nothing to do with them.  I stopped communicating with them over a couple of years ago, because they were cyberbullying me and someone else.  So what gives?  I honestly have nothing against them, since I didn't get to know them.  I really don't want to know you if you're going to have a song against me for no reason.  What gives you the right to attack me over something like my sexuality, my music, personal stuff, etc.  It makes zero sense!  For example... that's like me going against  a person that's a fan of gas lamps and then I tell him "oh get with the times, I'm gonna write a song about you and how old you are!"  These people try to take me down, but it only makes me stronger and stronger.  All of their negative energy and vibes turn into positivity and optimism for me!

So what's new?  Besides the fact that I am a metalhead and loving life... I am working with the CCHR (link removed, don't support them... I read up more on them.  Not a cool organization... what was I thinking?!)   to expose psychiatric abuse and how certain drugs (like Lexipro and Abilify) are controlling people.  There's more to it.  I have been so enlightened and educated this year, I am extremely amazed.  Not really, I now fully understand those drugs do indeed work for some.  Reading this CCHR?  Good, I'm not for your cause anymore.  However, I do know they do damage to certain people.  Shit, I even read some people need to take them in order to stay alive!  Look whatever, if you're on prescription drugs... I'm not gonna tell you to get off them or whatever.  I will not even direct you to CCHR anymore...  You keep on taking them.  STILL, I don't recommend or suggest anyone taking prescription/psychotropic drugs... but I think CCHR is going a wee bit too far and over-analyzing that stuff.   I will live a life full of happiness, liberty and love.  Trust me on this one!  Yes, I'm living a life full of happiness, comfort, safety, love, etc.  Liberty?  Yes, I would say that now.  I'm not into CCHR anymore.  I don't fucking care.  They never got back to me when I told them I changed my email address.  I'm not renewing my membership.  It's not a great organization.  What do you expect from an organization that was co-founded by a weird wacky religious cult figure?!


In conclusion, I have a lot to live for.  I'm a young person and I have the power to change this... world and even universe. ...DELETED!  What was I going on about there?  I'm more of a left-leaning libertarian today.  To be more precise, I'm an agorist.  Fuck Anarcho-Capitalism too, it's an oxymoron.  Sadly, capitalism is the best thing we got now, I'll admit.  However, I know we're much capable of having something better than capitalism... so let's find something better than capitalism and replace.  No I'm not a neo-Marxist, socialist, communist, etc.  Capitalism has failed and this late-stage capitalism is not fun.  There's a third alternative and you may search that up using good 'ol Google!  SPOILER ALERT: It's distributism.  Now read up on that.  08/06/2019 UPDATE: No... you don't want to, fuck that lol however there's better alternatives to capitalism and socialism!!!!

ONE MORE THING.... before I conclude this lovely blog post... I have one highly important link for y'all:

NOPE!  That was a ink to a ragecow's page.

Deleted that link since the dude is a Trump supporter and a major ragecow.  I'm not even mentioning this person's name either.

I have a left my permanent marking here on the Internet, unless PIPA, SOPA or whatever they call it remove my page or Blogger.com shuts down for some odd reason... who knows!  I am a freedom fighter.  I stand for love, liberty, peace and prosperity!  I will be one of the leaders in destroying the corruption, hypocrisy, dishonesty, negativity, religion, etc.  No matter how long it takes!  I am dedicated to helping out society and making sure society improves.  We gotta weed out the oppression and other stuff.  I can go on and on... however, I'll just end this blog right here.  Arrivederci!  Wow, I gotta admit that this is probably the best part of this whole damn blog entry!  I didn't really have to critique or comment on this!  Hehe!

Well there you have it!  I doubt anyone will read this.  Fine.  If you stumble upon this, good.  It's a reminder what I was like in 2012.  Now I will get into something that only family & close friends only knew about.  Now I'll let you all know.

2012 was not a good year for me and I know I'm not alone.  Here's my brief summary of 2012 and myself  2012 began as a good year for me and then ran into loads of negative energy.  [REDACTED].   I was going through low-negative energy vibrations in 2012  I know I wasn't the only one going through tough times in 2012.  Please understand that it was bad vibes and that is all over.  I'm finished with that negative energy for good.

Then around the spring time of 2012, some unknown boy/man kept calling and harassing me constantly.  I did not appreciate it at all.  What did I do to him?  I did nothing!  What did he do to me?  Nothing!  He went so far to push me over to the brink of suicide.  I couldn't take it anymore from that guy.  He was using 360 area code numbers and I don't think he's even from the U.S.  I will never truly know.  Now I know how to handle situations like that due to my high vibration energies.  I mostly don't answer phone calls from numbers I do not recognize.   Whoever you are, I love you now!  That weird funny electronic music in the background you played while calling me, it's funny and cool!  Rock on, dude!  No seriously, you changed my life for the better.  I have no idea who you are, but I forgive you for harassing me over the phone.   Yes, I did attempt to commit suicide as result of your harassment  around late May and it was unfortunately during a holiday weekend.  I had to stay at the sanatorium at the Yeager Health Center for a few days... I am now infinitely better!  Yup that dude did call me one final time in June 2012 and that was the final straw.  I'm not going to write down what I told him, but I didn't mean it and I hope he's safe and well.

I have significantly improved myself and I hope 2020 and the 2020's will be awesome for me.  I am better mentally/psychologically, emotionally, energetically and even physically.  I would say so since I'm running on high vibrational energy as of now and I will continue to expand my consciousness in a positive way.  Look up Dr. David Hawkins's energetic vibrations.  I'm way high up there nowadays!  That's pretty much it and I have no idea what else to jot down.  Thank you for reading this blog!